Entry puas hati :D ke tak?

Assalamualaikum

Hai..nak update cerita nih! Haritu kan aku dpt peluang buat giveaway yang best. N aku dapat tempat ketiga!! Alhamdulillah syukur.. Dah la first timer kan, so memang puas hati :D Name pun contest kan, so I did make some restrictions that I kept to myself when I wrote those supaya orang tak boring bace, sebab tu pendek jer T_T

So, aku tak puas nak tulis lagi! Ni versi bukan contest , but both come from this very sincere heart! Belah la dada, tengok la hati! Hah, tengok betape siyesnyer aku. -___-

Mukadimahnye ialah, today was not a very good day, so I ended sleeping all day and crying all night. And the thought of making this entry came, so here I am. 

I know physically we don't look really compatible, sebab orang hanya mampu cakap, "korang berdua ni comel la", atau maybe "korang berdua ni macam adik beradik la" when the truth is : Korang ni dedua cam pau kaya. Atau sorang pau kaya, sorang pau ayam. And Farhad is not that tall although he is dark and handsome. hee. And I admit I am not physically so attractive. But I do try to make myself presentable in front of others. So what? does look matters? Yes it does! But having him is more than I could wish for and  dekat biji biji mata aku ni, he is the most handsome man everrr. everrrr. Okey, second lah after abah. So bila orang komen dia tu camtu la, camni la, I'm mad. Sebab ape? I never complain about his look, so why you? And whyyy must it be in front of me? Kalau aku komplen pon sebab dia tinggal2 barang ke ape asal korang yang sentap? ke korang yang suka tinggal barang sepah2? jawab...jawab... -__-

Moreover, Farhad is the most understanding guy I ever met. So considerate and so mature. So mature even aku yang tua setahun ni pun rasa macam budak duabelastahun. And he helped me a lot during our 2 years together, kalau takde dia aku tak mampu survive pun, aku dah lemas dah kat mane2 k. He makes me come to my senses bila aku memang buntu dan tak mampu nak fikir ape2 dah. Bila aku down, macam harini, dia yang bagi semangat semua dekat aku. The reasonable, the most rational man I know.   

Dia satu satunya manusia yang aku boleh cerita segalanya, like every single thing. Even dengan kawan baik dari kecik pun aku tak cerita semua pasal hidup aku. I do make line within what you should know and what you shouldnt about me. Tapi dia tahu semua pasal aku walaupun kadang2 aku tak cerita ape2 pun dekat dia. See? he's like my own superhero. And he's the one who care the most about me. Aku takde kawan, dia tolong aku. Aku tak reti bahagi masa, dia tolong buat timetable sume. Aku tak reti buat assignment, dia tolong sampaikan assignment aku yang tinggi lagi dari dia. 

Aku hopeless, dependent? Yep, but he helped me grow a lot now and semangat dia sentiasa ada untuk aku bila2 masa je. Bila aku gaduh dengan orang, dia bagi jalan, dia tolong jadi pendamai. Yes, I do pray and doa to Allah, tempat sebaiknya mengadu, tapi kau kena ada orang jugak kan sebagai tempat kau mengadu, cari comfort? And he is the only one I have.  

And he is happy with me. Though people see that ,

I control him, I scold him often, I am not that thoughtful

Things that you see is not always the thing that you thought it would be. Korang judge aku eventho korang tak tanye pun aku ni sape, ape masalah aku. Dulu aku kesah, sebab aku tak suka orang jeling2 aku, orang buat status ke , blog ke kutuk2 aku. Aku tamo gaduh dengan sesape, takmo orang tak suka aku. Now I realise, not everything must be about me. And not everybody can accept you as you are. Lagipun sapelah aku nak revolve dekat dunia orang lain kan? So thats why I love him no matter what, because I know at least ade tempat untuk aku dekat dunia dia, and vice versa. 

Ni bukan entry emo. Tho it really does look like one. Okey lah fine, memang emo. -____-'

Lastly, walaupun bila dia hadir dalam hidup aku, aku tak pernah mimpi indah2 macam orang lain bila bercinta, segalanya bagai di alam fantasi, tapi aku ni the other way round. Dengan dia, macam2 senang, dan segala jenis susah aku lalui dengan dia. Maybe sebab dah besar. So susah senang kitorang lalui sama2 and I hope it will always be. with him. my farhad.

His present for our 2years 5months together :)

Bye.